Monday, January 17, 2011
Wow, it was so surreal! We couldn't believe that we had committed to IVF. After making the our payment to RMA we called the pharmacist to order all of our meds. To my surprise our insurance cover all of it!
After 21 days of shots...Ben really stepped up to the plate and had no problem giving them to me. I did learn that I am pretty tough girl...
Finally the time had come! On November 3rd- we went in for the egg retrieval. We were excited to hear that they had take 11 viable eggs. On Saturday we received a phone call that 9 eggs fertilized. Over the next 5 days we received updates on our "babies". We continued to pray for God to have his way, no matter what the outcome we wanted it to be his way not ours. November 8th was the day of the big transfer! After getting all gowned up I was ready to go. Did you know that it is optimal for the transfer to have a full blatter? Not only is it awkward to be all exposed you also feel like you are going to pee everywhere. Its really not funny but true. After the transfer we were sent home to wait....the dreaded two week wait is awful.
Unfortunately, we received the news that our first IVF transfer was negative. I spent the next 6 hours crying and feeling sorry for myself. 1 Thessalonians 5 16-18 "Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances: for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." Even though things didn't go the way we felt they should have gone, we are confident in the lords will for our journey.
Enjoy this song/video
Sunday, January 9, 2011
"For I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength. Even so, you have done well to share with in my present difficulty." Philippians 4:13-14
I do can do anything,
I can do all things,
For it's you who gives me strength
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.
Through you blind eyes are open
Strongholds are broken,
I am living by Faith,
NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE.
I believe, I believe, I believe, I believe in YOU!
In June after my laparoscopy our Doctor presented all the facts for us about our situation and where we stood with our treatment. Coming off of 2 failed IUI's and getting the results of the laparoscopy I felt like I had been kicked in the stomach. Although we were relieved that the surgery went well and they found nothing we were left with very little answers to why the IUI's didn't work. Dr. Arredondo explained that with Ben's morphology issue and my lack of regular ovulating, we'd only have a 5% chance of conceiving on our own. WHAT!?! 5% that is crazy. However, we can do another clomid IUI and that increases our chances to 17% or if we choose to go ahead with IVF our chances go all the way up to 65-70% chance. Sounds like a no brain-er right? That's what I thought, sign me up for IVF.
So it was decided we would do IVF! I gathered all the information about it: cost, process and the details about the actual procedure. We knew that the cost would be the largest factor in whole deal. Sadly our insurance does not cover IVF so it would come out of our pockets. Fortunately Ben and are strict Dave Ramsey followers and when pushed came to shove we knew we did not want to go into debt. The reality was that we wanted to make sure we on God's plans not ours. Having the most realistic, level headed husband I have we both agreed if IVF was what we needed to do to extend our family then we'd have to buckle down and save the money so we could pay cash. I knew God was at work and was incomplete control of our situation. When I thought I couldn't do it anymore this verse and this song would push me, and push me to continue to seek his will for our journey.
I know medically they gave us 5% but through God nothing is impossible!
Friday, January 7, 2011
To bring you all up to speed on the past 2 years....
January 2009- Started "trying"
July- Noticed things were not "normal"
August - Met with regular Doctor
November-February- Clomid (stimulates ovulation)
January 2010-Hysterosalpingogram (tubes and uterus)
February- Referred to Fertility Specialist (Ben got all his parts checked)
Finally we were given a few answers to why we were having a difficult time conceiving. Turns out I have a difficult time ovulating on my own and Ben has a morphology problem (shape of the sperm). In English we are not good mating partners. Our doctor at RMA of Texas encouraged us to move to more aggressive treatment.
March- Colmid IUI (intra-uterine insemination) Negative pregnancy test
May- Comind IUI - negative pregnancy test
June- Laparoscopy (surgery to determine if I had endometriosis) which I didn't
June- Decided to go ahead with IVF (In-vetro fertilization)
October- Started IVF treatment
November- IVF transfer-negative pregnancy test
That brings the 2 years into view. Of course from there are many emotions to go along with every step of the way.